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I kind of don't have a title and I thought I did and it starte with It's and that's all I remember so to make this writing process faster I just went on with the entry.
ok, as I promised yes I now have a job! This is my first offical job ever and I'm actually getting paid (I taught flamenco for a couple of weeks this past summer but I refused to get paid because it was more a favor than anything but don't do it! always take the money!) anyway it is a very awesome job, I am working with an awesome professor (I know you're reading this!) and she has hired me to model for one of her projects, She is making a book about the women in Juarez Mexico who have been raped and murdered and their families are left with no consolations because sadly it is a problem that no one talks about, that has been mysteriously going on for a really long time and that the government and police refuse to fix. Back to the project, she is makinig a book about one of these girls and she makes dolls and to the dolls she puts the faces of different people and I am one of the characters. I must admit that I have this insecurity with having my picture taken because I NEVER like my pictures because I have this theory that if you want to get your picture taken you have to know how to have it taken meaning...you have to know how to smile and look interesting and I don't think I can do that very well, but today went good and she was really really nice and got me very excited about working with her and I feel like I might get quite attached to this project and maybe slowly I will rid myself of this insecurity if she keeps telling me that pictures look good. So that was the highlight of my day not to mention that after reading more than 100 pages this past weekend I think I can now read faster...if only I could write now ahhhh
Im feeling good because I managed to survive the weekend and all the work that I had to do and what not and I'm just really hoping that I can go back to doing nothing for a day or two.
I am very thankful for all that I have though, looking back and reflecting upon it all, I wouldn't give it up but instead keep pushing to be better and gain experience in life because after all that is why it was given to me. I feel like everything comes to me for a reason and it makes me very happy to know that God in his own magical and mysterious way is still looking out for me so no matter how hard or frustrating it gets I am always 100% sure that I can get through it.
p.s. long entries make me happy ;)