Breakfast at Tiffany's

No, no...i did not have "breakfast at tiffany's"...althought that would be nice, I wouldn't even want to have food, just look around one morning before doing anything else, perhaps even convincing someone to get me something, nothing big, that wouldn't be special, just a little something, just like...the movie! which I absolutely adore!
It is one of those movies that you can go back to and watch infinite times and still find something new and interesting about it, something that you did not catch the time before. It is perfectly funny, romantic, dramatic, everything, everything! and it is one of the few movies that I can say has every line that it needs. you know how in some movies there are lines that just do not need to be said or could be cut out and it wouldn't matter... not this one!
Why I love it even more, I love the pink and white case in which it comes! its so girly! perfect....hmm...almost perfect! ;)
I'm feeling a little lonely, I miss my sister and I really really miss Syracuse, these past days have just been a reminder of my house and life and small cute town and how much I really really want to go back, I just feel the need to go back...soon
So! if you have never seen breakfast at tiffany's...do it! watch it! and if you've never been to Syracue, you can go but don't stay I prefer to keep it perfect like it is without overcrowding it, its a secret littlle place among us lucky ones ;)

this is what is going through my mind

Parara, parara, padadada whoooahhh
parara, pararara, padadadada whooooooaaaahhh

I uhh

ummm..uhhh, mmhm...ehhh...oh...hmm???

news

I have added cnn.com to my bookmarks
From now on I will be more wordly educated...i hope
I slept 12 hours, I havent slept 12 hours in months, it feels great
I woke up to cha-cha-cha, rumba and salsa music which can only mean one thing, im home... :)... i think happy face?...hmm?

;)

I would like to reach out my hands
I may see you, I may tell you to run
You know what they say about the young.
Well, pick me up with golden hand
I may see you, I may tell you to run
You know what they say about the young
I would like to hold my little hand
How we will run we will, how we will crawl we will
I would like to hold my little hand
How we will run we will, how we will crawl
Send me on my way
On my way (8x)
Mm hmm
I would like to reach out my hand
I may see you, I may tell you to run
You know what they say about the young
Well, pick me up with golden hand
I may see you, I may tell you to run
You know what they say about the young
~ rusted root

I admire

Humble talented people circulating this crazy world. It is such a genuine and true exciting feeling to see people who enjoy doing something and they excel at it without being egotistic about it. It is one of the most inspiring things to witness
For example, I know this boy who is amazing at playing guitar, he is a prodigy and he plays with such a passion. He makes facial expressions and bites down on his tongue and his eyes are so concentrated on the music. His fingers move with such ease, it comes natural to him...he doesn't seem to notice any of this though... he just plays
and it makes my day.
I can't take my eyes off of you bebe ;)

recap

There are some many things going on, so much to take care of, keep up with and keep track of. There seems to be no time, no extra minutes, there seems to be no time to take a deep breath and when there is, it is followed by another round of work. My mind no longer shuts off, it seems to say, no it is not enough for today, do more, be better, it is not enough yet. The world seems so small and my life seems immense, it takes over my body and my mind. Then, when I get to the deadlines, when I turn in a project, when I put down my pen at the end of writing a paper or taking a test, there is such a rush. There is beautiful release and I realize that I wouldn't have it any other way. That I work for that moment, for that rush, for that end and beyond that point nothing more really matters. And then it all starts over again, its an endless cycle that I have begun to learn about it.
First lesson: Don't let it take over you, you must listen to your body and mind and be at one with it, otherwise you will never get anywhere else, believe in whatever it is that you do, and DO NOT over think, because it will all work out in the end.
Professors have this notion or belief that the only class we ever take is their class and therefore they can assign a massive challenging project in two days. Yet we all have 4 or 5 other classes that do the same exact thing, assign a massive assignment in two days, Do as much as you can, stop when your body cries out of stress and tension. Patience can be learned and the people that surround you are there to help you and take care of you, don't neglect them.
When there is a good balance it is great to know that I can do things on my own. Finally, don't fool yourself and complain and stress yourself more than you need to, you know you wouldn't have it any other way.

uhh

highlight of the day...dinner shower and olympics
school work is never ending and i love to complain about it

this week

OVERWORKED ALREADY!
its ok...i have a plan to make it all work...it makes sense in my head
;)

yay!

happy birthday to me!!!
:), if u can't tell this is me with a really big smile

"That the sky would lift
That I’d find my place
That I’d see your face in the door
And the sun would glint
On a time well spent." david gray

yay for being 19!

lazy saturdays

I love 'em! There is something about waking up to a sunny bright day that I absolutly adore. I woke up to read about the Hellenistic period which is quite interesting and then I went to have tea and a donut (how classy) and enjoy the beautiful sun, it was so enjoyable. I wish all days could be like this, where I get to enjoy everything fully and take my time with things. I tend to get caught up in all that I have to do and I forget to have fun with it and that's not what its all about. If we could all just dedicate our lives to enjoying each activity we do, I believe life would be simple but worth having. It is not that this hectic life is not enjoyable but perhaps there is a better way to dedicate our minds, efforts and emotions.
I think today I will just relax sit back and smile

new idea

I have decided that I need to develop my writing skills more, that is to say, must be more creative about the way I write. So! from now on this will be the space where my brilliant jibberish is written. It won't be so hard because...I still have to write on here, so I will simply take advantage of it and actually write something worthwhile...writing, reading? whatever.
It is friday night and it hit me today that yes I will be turning 19 and it is oh so exciting! actually...I have to confess, I got excited about it because I went shopping for my twin sister's bday present and I really really want to give it to her, I truly cannot wait til sunday because I know she will love it. I am also very excited (might sound sad) that I will only share it with her and my parents, I truly cannot think of any better way of spending this day than to spend it with the people I truly love, instead with people I don't really like or have no desire to spend time with. Being away from friends is hard... it is so evident to me that my high school friends are the most important friends I have made (counting the ones in mexico) the people I have met so far that coudl be potential friends...I don't nearly spend enough time with or have managed to annoy the heck out of me to the point where I can't even look at them because they put me in a bad mood. I, however, am willing to change this. I refuse to change for the bad (does that make sense?) I just refuse to be a bad person or to be put in the position where I feel like a bad person, but anyway
enough for tonite!

yeah...

so much to do
so overwhelming sometimes, its just too much
and this weekend is my birthday...it doesn't feel like it
it usually feels like a happy time, not this time
i hate that

lovely wednesday

I HAVE 4 LECTURES TODAY!!! AND A 3 HOUR WOOD CLASS!!!! suuch a long day
but its ok because its the end of the week...almost and its my dip's birthday and i bought an orange pen today and pepsi too

valentines day

the worst position to be in is knowing that you have someone who utterly loves you and you love that person back just the same, but they are so far away and as hard as you try, it is impossible to stop missing them or thinking about them.
yet,
happy valentines day everybody
share the love and be good, above all, always be a good person full of love
:)

it is

Freaking cold outside!!!
im still sad
and tired

too fast

time goes by way to fast. the first 5 minutes are the best because he is finally here and then I know that I am losing time because he will soon leave again, and it breaks my heart. It seems like everytime I watch him go, it gets harder and harder.
It was an incredible weekend, I found myself at my happiest.
Now back to real life.

hugs

hugs! hugs! lots of hugs!
billy is awesome, he is wicked awesome, he got me COACH shoes for my bday! now i have to give him a hug!
bye

word of advice

If you are tiny and petite like me! NEVER take advil cold and sinus because it will knock you out! I keep ignoring the fact that I need to rest and it is really getting to me. I'm trying hard to pay attention to myself though, i really am because I know that if I have health I can have the rest. My boyfriend comes tomorrow!!! Im oh so excited!!! all I want to do this weekend is hug him, thats all.
Song of the day- you're beautiful James Blunt...good song to listen to.
thats it for today

ummm

I don't like being sick
I am in bed with a fever but do not feel like sleeping because that makes me feel like I waste a day and so I am once again attemptin to conquer go live, I am confident that it will happen this time. Anyway, I noticed that I have been posting very little, and for your own pleasure and entertainment I will tell you a story,
So, to begin with my roommate has not been my favorite person for the past...umm...I can't even remember how long, but shhh its a secret and I'm trying to be really positive about this living situation. Anyway, 3 weeks ago I walked into the room and saw a penny on the floor on her side of the room. I have this thing about pennies that I have to pick them up and see what year it is and if its a 1999 or a 1994 with a D below its a sign specifically put there for me. So I picked it up and it wasn't an Ana penny so I put it on the floor again, a week and a half went by where I decided NOT to pick it up and see what she would do about it and the penny never moved! So finally I picked up which I don't think she noticed either. The next day I walk in again and ANOTHER penny was on the floor which I have neglected to pick up because I REALLY want to give her the chance to do it herself, I also haven't checked the year. SOO,for three weeks now there has been a penny on the floor, in the same exact place, which leads me to believe that the universe is trying to tell me something and I am not being good about understanding what it is. OR she just doesn't really care about what her room looks like which really bothers me.
Look at the cute kitty!!!

:(

I'm sick! :(

better day

I think I understand yay!!!
:)
Go Pittsburgh!!

I love

Fridays and yellow lilies.

thursday

* loved digital class this morning!
* overwhelmed by project
* hated every minute of cfc
* got hot chocolate
If you are reading this:
I need all of you people to check your email and email me back ASAP! I need a random fact about you and what you would like to work in when you graduate! please do it! especially you steve and julia because I don't know ur email addresses ok!
delanana@umich.edu ASAP
thanks :)

baah

IM TIRED, GOING TO BED TWO HOURS AFTER I AM READY TO GO TO BED IS NOT WORKING FOR ME
yesterday: state of the union address... yeah... he is not my favorite person
i saw the cutest squirrel today