recap

There are some many things going on, so much to take care of, keep up with and keep track of. There seems to be no time, no extra minutes, there seems to be no time to take a deep breath and when there is, it is followed by another round of work. My mind no longer shuts off, it seems to say, no it is not enough for today, do more, be better, it is not enough yet. The world seems so small and my life seems immense, it takes over my body and my mind. Then, when I get to the deadlines, when I turn in a project, when I put down my pen at the end of writing a paper or taking a test, there is such a rush. There is beautiful release and I realize that I wouldn't have it any other way. That I work for that moment, for that rush, for that end and beyond that point nothing more really matters. And then it all starts over again, its an endless cycle that I have begun to learn about it.
First lesson: Don't let it take over you, you must listen to your body and mind and be at one with it, otherwise you will never get anywhere else, believe in whatever it is that you do, and DO NOT over think, because it will all work out in the end.
Professors have this notion or belief that the only class we ever take is their class and therefore they can assign a massive challenging project in two days. Yet we all have 4 or 5 other classes that do the same exact thing, assign a massive assignment in two days, Do as much as you can, stop when your body cries out of stress and tension. Patience can be learned and the people that surround you are there to help you and take care of you, don't neglect them.
When there is a good balance it is great to know that I can do things on my own. Finally, don't fool yourself and complain and stress yourself more than you need to, you know you wouldn't have it any other way.