I attempted to write this really looong entry about everything but then it just became a mess, so I deleted it. I am not finding the right words today, but still I have this really big desire to write about something. I guess it happens, I think that when we most want to say something, or write something or express ourselves in some kind of way, we cant. There is no focus, no real level of concentration which in turn can lead to frustration, if we let it!
I want to go out today and eat outside, in a place full of flowers and enjoy a delicious hearty meal. The medicine that I am taking has me a little out of balance, its really strong and well Im tiny so itll take some getting used to. I read the instructions and side effects and I have to take it with food and an 8 0z glass of water four times a day, and I cannot lie down for 30 minutes after taking the medicine. It can cause temporary weight loss while one gets used to it, heart burn, abdominal pain, back pain and oh by the way, rare fatal intestinal problems have been reported. There has got to be a better way around our health problems.
These are the vague thoughts roaming through the inner-depths of my unconsciousness,
i cried you last night
I still remember february, march, and april
if only i had known that it was the beginning of the end
if only you missed those times like i miss them
if only we had actually been destined for each other
when did time stop being on our side?
But when I turn back, you will be but a distant memory.