I smell really good

I surprisingly smell ridiculously good, like i get this lovely smell and i say to myself, what is thaat!?? and I realize its me, i thought I'd share that.
I was going to write about this yesterday but I realized I didn't, im really out of it though, I feel really weak today, I can hardly get out of bed and a fork has never weighed so much!
I literally have to ask my arms for permission to move, but I feel fine, I just wish I didn't have to be in bed, I can't just be in bed but I think that's why God is doing this to me, I always put others before me and I would rather take care of someone else than myself and I don't learn the lesson so this is the only way that God can get me to slow down and say relax, stop worrying about others and worry about yourself, now rest!
anyway, what I really wanted to write about was that yesterday I took a shower and got in bed and watched tv and there was nothing interesting I was getting bored and really wanted to get out of bed and do something and then suddenly at 1 pm i was flipping through the channels and there it was, my favorite movie ever starting on tv!!!! Serendipity!!! I really think it was a sign, its hardly ever played on tv and it made me sooooooooooooooooooo happy, I can't explain how happy it made me, like soooooooooooo happy haha! it really was a sign of you're gonna be ok ana!
I love that movie, I know every line by heart, i know what song is about to play and it never ever gets old, it gave me hope, it sounds silly i know but it did, not hope for one single specific thing, just hope :)

Dear year 2006:
You suck! you have been so mean to me and even though intuition told me you were gonna be hard on me from day one, I underestimated you! but you know what!??? I still win! soon you'll be gone and I will still be alive, move on and forget about you! plus 2007 will be much better to me! You, 2006, are not liked!