reflecting

Im just going to write about today because it was good, it's one of those days you want to have happen over and over, its one of those days that serves as reprieve. It was gorgeous outside, with beautiful weather and beautiful sun. I was outside the entire afternoon laying out in the sun and doing homework. It was so incredibly enjoyable and relaxing. Nature is a good thing, enjoying nature is something we should all do at least one day a week.
Then, I got free conditioner out in the street, this group of people just gave it to me, they were doing some kind of activity and it was really funny and they took my picture. So I guess now I will have to start using conditioner, I will let you know if its good or not.
There is a ton of leaves on the grass in the diag now because well...fall is here and so these parents were playing with their little kid, who must have been three years old. They were tossing the leaves up in the air and burying him with the leaves and they were having so much fun, it made me wish that was me. Thats what I want my sundays to be like in 15 years when I'm married and have little kids.
Change is scary, it is good, but sometimes it feels too fast and it becomes frightening. Like, there is no one there to carry me through the threshold and let me know that I will be ok, that it will be better at the other side of the bridge. It's intimidating though, at it kind of feels like I would be leaving a big part of me behind, a part of me that I am still very attached to. It feels nostalgic, but it may just be right, maybe it is really time to move on, if nothing can be done to start over, then there is no need to force things, it may just be time to move on.
I've come to the conclusion that this is the year of losing things. I'm still standing.