Tuesday, July 04, 2006

things are changing

over at 49325 ecp in shelby township! It is looking gorgeous and I'm so proud of the change, I can't get enough of it, it just looks warm and nice, sometimes changes are good. I looove furniture stores, I could live in a furniture store if it were allowed, you could seriously walk in and look around, ask a little, try a little, EAT a lot!!! and walk out with no compromise, that's how great they are. It's so fun to have little projects to do around my house, I feel useful and I feel like we bonded, yes the house and me.
my new favorite foods are chicken & green tomato sauce empanadas and shrimp, not necessarily together, but why not, I could eat these two foods all day, everyday.

Sometimes my biggest fear is to think that I will turn out to be like my mother, it's terrible really, she is a great person and talented and interesting but I fear that she has passed on to me her not so good qualities. Why is that? why must a person always fear to turn out like the people that are closest to them. This is just a thought, it's not actually that important but sometimes it ocurrs to me.
The truth however, is that I have enjoyed spending time with my mommy and daddy so so much lately, I feel like I haven't been able to laugh in a loong time and they make me laugh.
That is what I wish for today, to laugh endlessly, to laugh so much and so hard that it can take all the pain away, all of it.
I can't decide which is worse, obsession or withdrawal.

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