Today made me feel like a failure, and, I hate that feeling. It creates doubts and fears that are really hard to get past. It saddens me that my last day of classes was such a terrible day. I know that we perpetuate situations, I know that we create life negative for ourselves for lack of a better word, perhaps negative is too harsh. It is true that we are also impacted by people though, why is it, however, that instead of interacting with other people in a fun postivive way we must make each other feel upset. If we are going to impact each other's lives negatively, then what is the point of interacting with each other at all?? I mean, I don't need it, I'm sure most people do not welcome arrogance and disrespect and such. I like to think that I can move on and emerge and not care, it is a flaw in my character, I care too much, and it takes a while for me to forget. Today was definitely a day for myself, i just hope I wake up tomorrow to a better day, there are so many things that I just want to get done, get them over with and instead I have to wait for time to go by...and it sucks!
2 more days and william is here, yay!!!